Bittersweet Immortality;

A never-ending life of happiness and melancholy,

Because they are Immortals...

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The dreaded exam....

SHOOT!!! It's here...the worse thing in the season... The time when i'l always start 2 panic..the only time when i'm having butterflies in my stomach...the time when i'm stuck in the house 1 month b4 it studying til i finish doing it....THE TIME 4 P.M.R.....is here!!!!
Crap!! i can't bliv time flew soooo fast!!!!!! argh!!! i'm not ready...i'm not gonna do well...i tink i'l do very badly...oh no.......i'm feeling sick now...can't take the pressure fr evrywhere!!! arghg!!!
LOL...... even though i'm not prepared i stil ned 2 take the exam... sooo i can't panic..i ned 2 control myself..i....dunno...how....2....control...the....fear....
my dad...MY DAD!!! OH NO!!! another panic...haiz...shouldn't panic...haiz...the rally...it's almost here...closing team..we ned 2 buck up.......oh no...fellowship....oh no....launching.....oh no.......
ned 2 pray harder...PRAY HARDER!!! lol.....n aso study...STUDY!!! those fr 4's gonna have their exam s well..i wish y'all the best 2!!!
n those unlucky 1's who r sitting 4 their P.M.R.(the most dreadful exam in history---4 now---:) do ur best n rmember if u don't do well...it's not the end of the world...

GUD LUCK!!!:)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

PAIN...

After all the pain n hardship, n left dwn, kick around by those i thought were my real true friends... i've learned that u can't trust any1 else even ur parents cept 4 GOD....... even if u tell ur mum who ur crush is or ur dad who it is...they'l go havoc n then tell evry1 in the fmily bout this guy or gurl though u beg them not 2.... parents.... they just love u...u can 4giv them...
but when ur friends since primary skol suddenly stabs u at the back, by telling al ur secrets like they're just simple n normal conversations... u feel realy hurt n let dwn... repeat n repeat u get the same stab evry part of ur body...the stab is xtremly painful... n even though u try 2 4 get it... the pain n btrayal quietly creeps in ur mind when ur aslep or daydreaming n u'l remember what they've done...n it hurts again...u try 2 giv it up 2 GOD..u try n beg him 2 take the pain away fr u but the pain always sticks in ur core...
nothing can ever destroy the pain..... even GOD had 2 b in pain al the time watching us leave in misery n greed n al the unhealthy ways we live even though he gav us his oni son 2 die 4 us.... u can let go of the pain..but sooner or later the pain wil return n hurt u a million times harder.. pain is immortal.... evry1 human or plants, or animals or nature who feels the pain by what we're doing 2 them-destructing nature by using CFC, air-con, etc...even GOD!!! feels pain......
n it hurts when u wan 2 let it go...but sme1 else wil push n add mre salt in the wound... when ur friends don't trust u.... when ur friends don't like u cuz sme1 poison thier minds cuz of jeaousy... when those u wan 2 make friends with look dwn on u cuz u don't fit in their rank... the most painful thing u'l ever feel ( cept anything 2 do bout fmily) is when ur friends left u out... when ur friends ignore u...but like Jesus...we ned 2 move on we ned 2 suffer 2 reach what we want...n the pain no matter how strong it is..... wil soon dissapear but not completly....when u hav GOD wit u....even though the pain wil stil cme we ned 2 trust HIM 4 it is oni HIM who we can trust... b careful who u place ur trust or they'l end up stabbing u not oni fr the back but even in front of u..
s 1 of my gud friend said....pray hard...n pray harder when u feel like how i felt when i was alone in the dark... prayers.....is the oni cure not time..... pray sincerely n u'l find peace.....

pain canot b vanquish completly...
but can b ignored if u have faith...
without faith u can't move on closer 2 HIM...
believe in urself n ttrust HIM...
draw others 2 him but b careful who u put ur trust...
or u'l end up hurt...
and u'l chase away HIM...
and the madness of life shal consume u...
until there's no 1 else 4 u...
nothing left 4 u...
oni death...
and that death which creeps 2wards u...
is not even peaceful...
just cuz u fall in the madness of the pain u suffer...
u'l leave the world also in pain n not peace...
beware...
pple say don't mess with fire...
but i say don't mess with ur faith...
cuz if u slack a little...
evryting wil b lost...
the candle 2 light wil b bown out...
n a painful death awaits...




Saturday, September 26, 2009

What will i ever do without them???

Though i just oni know him ike 4 a couple of months(n often infuriate him at times..hehe..)lol... he's always there helping me out n teaching us n guiding us 2wards the right way...many of u won't kno this if u guys r not tin the team..but he's the team oldest n the masters of the masters in our logistics..we al call him our GRANDFATHER!!! He's 1 of the awesmeness(i don't know if there's such word which definitly not...hehe..) graduate but i hav 2 say...ALL OUR GRADUATES R SUPER DUPER AWESME!!!!
IVY(she really help me a lot...), MICHELLE, MARC(must b EVry careful wit him cuz he can blow up any minute...watch out!!!:) STEP, KATH, AARON( man he's realy cool when he's DRUMMING!!! KEVIN!!! he know's evryting boutt music..he can play evryting!!! technically evryting like-keyboard, guitar, drum, n wat eElse aso la i tak tau...:) JOSHUA, AARON( he can't b separate fr the projector...haha..:), GRACE( I never see her angry...she's always smiling...so sweet...) JO-ANN(she's amazing!!!) SHELDON!!!!(HE'S REALLY CUTE!!! n smetimes very anoying....hehe...) IAN KAM!!!( WE AL STIL MISS YA!!!) N SO MANY OTHER MRE!!! our graduates spend their time "handling" us( i kno we're very mafan...sooryyy lor...:)

i don't kno what we're gonna do witout them.. they're like angels fr heaven cme dwn 2 help us go closer 2 GOD!!! i'm realy sory if i did smething bad or bhave improper... but Starfish... thnxs 4 trying 2 cheer me up... sorry if i realy get on ur nerves..hehe...i'l try...
n aso... not 2 4getting my awesme team members!!! the gurls who did n awesme job on the banner!!! the boys who their launching dance is really pumping n hot!!! n aty Pat n uncle Richard who've done so many things 4 us...(n aso Beatrice...hehe:)
i don't kno why i did this post... mayb cuz of Starfish wit his message.. i don't kno.. n i don't tink i'l ever wil kno...hehe.... thnxs Starfish...Thnxs 09team...Thnxs Graduates...Thnxs Aty Pat, Uncle Richard n Beatrice...
xoxo
THNXS EVRY1!!!!

Friday, September 25, 2009

I AM SOOO SORRY!!!!:(

I M SOO SORRY 2 AL THE GURLS WHO I HAV DISAPOINTED LAST WEDNESDAY N THURSDAY!!! N 2 make things worse i don't kno how 2 make up 2 them..i kno 4 sme sorry is not enough...but i don't kno wat else 2 do..n i can't go 4 practise this friday n propably this sunday 2.. i feel realy sad n angry at myself 4 disapointing al of u..
2 Daph i don't tink i can 4giv myself n i can't 4get this incident.....cuz this is like the 1st time i realy do kno that i disapointed so many of my frends just cuz i didin't put enough n mre effort 2 help y'all...
VERY SORRY...

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

THNXS DOMI!!!

If any of the 09 team is reading this...1st and foremost..i wanna say that this domi is none other than DOMINIC GAN!!!
the whole day i was in bad mood...cuz if i didn't do well in my P.M.R.(wat a burden) my dad says tat he'l drop me out of the team... n i was realy upset cuz i realy wanna b in the team n carry out what i started... but my dad gave me this xtra burden n i feel like i'm gonna drop dead after carrying so many burden on my shoulder...
so the whole day i was like trap in my room reading geo (like mad mind u) n i was like very scared my result wil drop... i just don't wanna drop out of the team... but then dominic.. DOMINIC!!! was just the peson 2 cheer me up!!! 2 bad i don't hav ice cream wit me now... haiz...lol...
ANYWAYS..... i just really wanna thnx my domi 4 being there al the time wen i was n now dwn al the time... ur a great frend 2 hav... i tink i'l b always a moody total gloomy gurl if there wasn't u 2 cheer me up!!! sorry if i lose my head on u sme times...hehe...2 those other frends aso i love y'all even ai li, daphney, dim sum and many mre!!! i'm realy blessed of having many frends who r aso true 2 me...
xoxo
love u guys!!!(thnxs domi!!!)

Monday, September 7, 2009

4........

4 things i'l love to do....
-shopping the whole day around the world!!!
-jungle tracking n exploring nature(caves, volcanoes, hot springs, etc....)
-become a succesful international actress!!!
-EATING ICE-CREAM ALL THE TIME!!!(without putting on xtra weight!!!)
4 things i'l love to have...
-having my own dream home with a enormous swimming pool, a huge garden, and lots
of fountains in it!!!
-having my own freaking fast sport cars!!!
-3 handsome sons
-my hubby to have the characters of EDWARD CULLEN!!!
4 countries i'l love to go...
-New Zealand!!!
-Russia!!!
-Rome!!!
-France!!!
4 places i'l love to hang out...
-Shopping complex!!!
-Beach!!!
-Home!!!
-Anywhere where my frends hang out!!!
4 drinks i never stop drinking...
-Lime juice!!!
-Lemonade!!!
-Milk!!!
-Sprite!!!
4 flavours of ice-cream i love...
-Vanilla with oreo!!!
-Yam!!!
-Ice potong!!!
-Rocky road(f.y.i.-it's chocolate with marshmallow n choky chips in it)!!!
4 of my favourite hobbies...
-Reading!!!
-Imagining(daydreaming)!!!
-Watching movies!!!
-Shopping!!!
4 ways for to stay happy...
-Start a random laugh!!!
-Start dancing!!!
-Think of Edward Cullen!!!
-Eat ice-cream!!!

The vampire who's sooo HOT!!!



ISN'T EDWARD CULLEN HOT!!!! SO IN LUV WIT HIM!!!!








Such a weirdo...

I'M such a weirdo....as far as i hate 2 admit myself...i dunno y.....but i really thought that blogging was a waste of time...but now.... BLOGGING IS REALY COOL!!! welll....wat dyo xpect fr a gurl who luves shopping, reading books(not school books mind u), n watching mvies all the time!!! it's quite a big shock in my life xtually.......
thnxs Josh!!! luv u 4 giving me tat dare!!

xoxoxo....
loving blogging....

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Body aches terribly...

Practise on friday was really hectic...(not to mention awfully painful...)...my body stil aches til now...and my head's burning!!! So more need to study sejarah n K.H.!!! sejarah ok la...but K.H.!!! can't even remember anyting...haiz....
4 those unlucky ones who are sitting 4 their trials n soon the unescapable P.M.R...... i wish y'all the best!!! y'all sure wil get all A's la... i'm the oni 1 who wil b left bhind....zzzzz....
n i wan wish gud luck 2 my sis Joanne...4 her U.P.S.R. is this week....lol...u sure can pass 1.... U.P.S.R. is nothing compare 2 P.M.R.....zzzzz.....

P.S.- GUD LUCK EVERY1!!!!
xoxoxo.....:P

Saturday, September 5, 2009

It may be little, but it is important

Okay a few reminders to all readers: =)
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1. This blog was created to serve the purpose of gathering 50 readers! So on the right hand side of the blog, i hope you probably notice something with a button FOLLOW. Click on it. Okay?
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2. The ghosts who actually enter this blog, please leave a comment la. At least say a hi. Thanks.


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AI LI!!! UR 1 OF A KIND!!!

My blog was like sooo dead b4 this.....zzzzzz..... but now u made it imposibly fantastic!!! i dunno how can i repay u!!! anyting u wan u can count on me gurl!!!!

LUV YA FREND!!!MUAX!!!
xoxoxo.....ur my angel on earth!!!....

I love chocolates;

Yeah the blog banner is not very nice... Sorry arh!

Will make a few better ones for you to choose when im actually free...

hehe. So in the mean time, be vain.


ADVERTISTMENT #1.

Introducing Roll-away cream.


I mean honestly la, its practically buh bye eye bags.


You will know its working when your eye bags stink from the faeces.

Well, er.... We are using sistem barter and exchanging this amazing product for a box of ferrero rochers. Thanks.


Guide

Okay, Im pimping Jeanne's New Awesome Blog!!!! Whoppeedoo.
yes, this is an alien that attacked her territory.

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Yeah, anyways, this is a guide on how to post okay? Well, mostly for Jeanne la.


So the first step is your thoughts or whatever lame nonsense that comes to your mind.

#2.

Play With Colours.

What a awesome day today was..(ultraboring)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaWWWWWWWWWwwwwEeeeeeeeeessssSSSSooOOOommme

Third.

Blog is Expressing Yourself.

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Your life, Your thought, on a blog.

Think Big, Think Nice, Think Creative (even if you cant)

4thly,
Use Pictures. LOTS and LOTS of pictures brighten up a dull blog.


  • Pictures paint a thousand words.
You can generally make them using programs or theres this site*click where you can make it online. Or you can get nice ones from here*click and here *click

Or pictures on your own life. Better then most of the pictures. Cause when people come to your blog. They want to know how you are actually like. So they will be wanting to see pictures!!!!!

Lol.

5th
Jokes, Quotes ETC ETC. Okay i always ignore this cause lazy find la.

Videos are welcome too though.

Friday, September 4, 2009

FREAKING OUT!!!

I DID VERY BADLY IN MY MATH'S TRIALS!!! ARGH!!! crap....ergh.... PMR IS JUST LESS THAN A MONTH AWAY!!! I'M SO SCREWED!!! ARGH!!! Wat do i do wen i'm freaking out??? hmm.... LOL!!!ICE-CREAM!!! Ice-cream is the best medicine 4 anyting... hav any probs?? EAT ICE-CREAM!!!

P.S.-if ur scared 2 bcome fat...just drag ur leg n do sme exercise n then go on eating ICE-CREAM again!!!! L.O.L.!!!:P

Thursday, September 3, 2009

L.O.L.!!! I had a blog but this is the very 1st time i open it and start doing a post!!! haha... well... for those who do not kno me tat well... u stil don't get to kno me better cuz i reveal my true self oni to those friends who have proven themselves worthy to me....sorry....hehe... i'm not realy sure if i'l enjoy blogging....?? but i'l try 2 fill up my blog wit at least a few crap...hehe...
B.T.W....
HAPPY BDAY EDWARD AND EDMUND!!! I MISS U GUYS!!! LUV YA!!!