Bittersweet Immortality;

Dreaded Holiday....

2010-02-11T20:14:00.002+08:00

Sry haven't b updating my blog...feels sooo dead...2 mny homeworks...

i just miss fr2...:(

Hooray!!!! The weekend!!!

2010-01-29T18:34:00.002+08:00

(: :P

I'm soooooo happy that it's saturday 2moro!!! No SKOL!!! NO HOMEWORK!!! N most important is....NO ADD MATH HOMEWORK 2 CRACK MY BRAIN UP!!!! ARGH!!! YAY!!!

those in fr3's i'm asking u guys a favour...PLS ENJOY UR FR3'S...which is ur HONEYMOON YEAR!!!@_@

Skol sux now...Prefect is making my life harder...interact is making my life happy again...my clas is THE place I dreaded all the time...teachers r making my life miserable wit al the work they give us...i mean i accept the work but can't u pls EXPLAIN properly...:) not al tchers r that complicating...i mean i love my tchers but pls try 2 explain mre in detail...it doesn't mean that we're in a smart clas we r smart u kno...don't judge US by the clas we're in!!! zzzz...

but....i'm escaping 2 days fr skol!!!! YAY!!! seeing the monkeys of the 09 team...CHANG CHANG!!! MUMMY SOO aso...CC boy if i don't c u ah..u r sooo dead...:) LOL!!! the rest of them aso...:) can't wait...i'm jumping up n dwn now...:) WOOT!!!

Dying of Add maths...

2010-01-23T17:37:00.001+08:00

As it is written above...i M DYING of add maths...n aso phyisc...since both my tchers can't teach....sooo gonna die....i tink these 2 sub r gona fail me....:( zzzzz

F...Y...I...

2010-01-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

Wat ur doing now cowards don't scare us...u can burn dwn our churches but can NEVER burn dwn the faith we hav 4 our GOD...

a message 4 u chickens...u disgust me...n u r now under the category of worst scums ever...Our GOD is powerful n u wil pay 4 the hurt n pain u've caused 2 HIM in HIS HOUSE!!! IN OUR PLACE OF WORSHIP!!!

N we won't run...we wil stil go 2 church n worship HIS NAME 4 s long s we live...u talk bout peace n spread bout peace...but wat ur doing...isit bout peace??!! well i hav smeting 2 tell u guys...

PRACTISE WHAT U PREACH MORONS!!! Malaysia can never b 1Malaysia if the Malaysians r bhaving in this childish manner...this is a fact...CHANGE 4 THE BETTER EVRY1!!!!!

Pissed n upset...

2010-01-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

11 reasons y i'm in that mood nood the whole day...

11...didn't go 4 practise...:(

10....had 2 go out of town 2 visit my frend whose in hospital...stupid boy...u kno u got asthma but u stil wanna run!! donkey....in the end u left the hospital 5 min when i just arrived...zzzz

9....stuck in a jam the whole time...

8....the musics on the radio suck...4got 2 bring my ipod n any books 2 read...

7....couldn't even sleep cuz of the 2 monkeys at the back making unimaginable noise...screaming at them the whole time...

6....the food i had was terible so i ate at least 6 packets of various junk food all the way...hate eating junk food in a car...makes me feel like vomitting the whole time...

5....i missed watching 1 of my fav drama 2day...(n it was a terible missed!!:(

4....when reached home i found out my laptop was being used by 3 stupid-irresponsible-so called adults-imature boy(i mean 4 gudness sake u guys r 18 n above!!! don't u kno the meaning of privacy!!!!)

3....my room is messed up by the same ridiculous monkeys....n I got the blame fr my dad 4 not cleaning up my room!!!! How ridiculous is that!!!!!!unblivable!!!! At least u guys had sme guts 2 tell my dad u MONKEYS messed up MY ROOM!!!!

2....I thought i could chill fr the whole awful day i had in swimming dwnstairs but i found out that my cousins made a mess in it 2 n my maid was stil cleaning it up......just couldn't take it anymre so i shouted my lungs out.....

1....lastly...i didn't get 2 c the rest of the others 2day...Ash, CC Boy, mummy Soo, Lizzie, Dom Tam, Ange, Zacky, Daphy, so many mre....:( n West's hair is criously....can't get use 2 it anymre..)

i think if i had stayed wit u guys my day wil b so much better n lively...i just missed y'all...u can't imagine how painful n sad 2 b torn up fr u guys....it's 2 hurtful....

i miss u all...:(

It's 2010!!!

2009-12-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

evry1!!! Make sme noise n scream out ur lungs!!!!AHHHH!!!

OMG!!(g:)! u can see me(me:) i'm blending in just like a pine tree(tree:) nanananana.......cuz i'm a ninja nin ninja ninja ninja ninja...:P

though 8 mths realy is another past of mine...i will NEVER 4get U MONKEYS(yes not humans...hehe...) or otherwise my 2nd fmily who r all bonded by the LOVE we all share 2 our Lord n Saviour....

2009 might go away n never cme back...but the memories we had 2gether wil stick 4ever in my thich skull 4ever...even when i'm up there in paradise i wil stil look out 4 u guys n keep u all in my prayers...4 the rest of my other frends...welll u guys r aso my fmily n i love u all s well!!!

May 2010 b a New Year where the excitement, tears n everlasting fun wil b waiting 4 us with n even BANG!!!! LOVE Y'ALL N HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!:P

Awesme!!! :P

2009-12-28T13:34:00.002+08:00

I mean like criously Christmas party was a BANG!!!! it was soooo AWESME!! the acapilla( smeting like tat) was way byond my imagination!!! it was 1 of the best i've ever heard my graduates sung!!! it was awesme!!! HAHA!! awesme n awesme n awesme...

Grace would hav been finally relief n glad that's it over!!! She was sooo stressed wit evryting...fr the registration 2 the cleanup...props...evryting...even i wouldn't hav stand a day wit all those stress...i would hav gone old...LOL!! well done Grace...U're a great leader n i love helping u out n being part of ur team!!!

The nativity was awesme!!! but mre 4 me la...i love the dance!!!! it was fantastic!!! My dad we were syncro!!! oni a bit here n there but he was astounded when i said we've been practising 4 oni 5 days?? n not fully 24 hours...GUYS IN THE DANCE!!! WE PULL IT OFF!!!! Now Zacky can aso chill!!! HAHA!!! he aso sooo stressed wit the dance... LOL!!!

i'm sooo proud n happy for all of us!! i LOVE U ALL!!! N I MISS U!!!:)

Why oh Why??

2009-12-26T20:52:00.003+08:00

Of alll times...must it b now??? when 2moro i gotta dance...must i hav 2 injured my leg mre....no...not leg....mre accurately...my ankle...now how 4 gudness sake can i dance now???

when 2moro i gotta dance 4 christmas party...

when i gotta go 2 sooo many mre parties n whack mre food??(LOL:P)

when i hav a swimming race cming up...n i'm gonna let dwn my coach...shoot...:(

when new year is cming up...that means i'm gonna go through new year wit n injured leg...(ankle)..

Brilliant Jeanne...Well done... crap....anybody who hav a like n err... magical healing super powers or a medicine which can cure evrything right away???pls....HELP ME!!!!

lol...Merry christmas pple!!!! i mean Merry blated Christmas...:) Lol... C ya soon my frends...Luv ya!!! xD

No...i'm such n ignorant little gurl...

2009-12-24T19:16:00.002+08:00

How can i say this christmas is gonna b the best OF THE BEST christmas i'l ever have?? cuz she's not here...when there r major things i'm facing now...where r u??? this whole year...u were never once were next 2 me....u weren't by my side...

i'm sorry...i just miss u Mummy...i can't wait when u return....:) LOVE U....

THANK U LORD!!!

2009-12-24T19:09:00.002+08:00

Thank u soooo much!!!! i couldn't have done it witout u!! OMG!!!

GUYS!!! I FREAKING GOT 7A'S!!! UNBLIVABLE!!!! I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF!!! I CRIOUSLY CAN'T!! OMG!!!

i slap myself a couple of times n yet....the slip didn't change!!! i DID GOT STRAIGHT A'S!!!!!
i went swimming but i couldn't hold my breath n i couldn't control my limbs!!! went skating pulak...but i kept falling dwn....till i realy xcept that JEANNE!! U CRIOUSLY GOT STRAIGHT A'S!!! then i was like racing round the skating rink like a maniac...N I DIDN'T FALL!!! weird...

2 all my bloved frends...it doesn't matter if u think u didn't do welll, hei i'm stil ur frend:) n it doesn't matter if u guys did better...welll...stil frends right??? HAHA!!! LOL!!!.. i'm crazy right now....2 hyper....lol....LOVE ALL OF U!!!

getting ready 2 go 2 Christmas mass... this christmas is gonna b 1 of the best OF THE BEST christmas of my life...:0 love all of u!!! frends 4ever!!!:P

I miss u guys...:(

2009-12-18T02:40:00.002+08:00

i criously canot tahan wei...i mean..i kno i just went out wit u monkeys, but i sooo miss u like the outing never happen...

like we didn't start arguing over new moon sucks or not...(new moon doesn't sux!!! both of them r hot!!!:P)

like we didn't go 2 the arcade n saw KE LI( of all person) playing zombie smeting...which kills zombie!!! sooo violent!!! n aso like we didn't play cheat on that dancing machine...LOL!!! stil lose aso...HAHA...

like we didn't make sooo much of noise at ANW where we all scream chang chang when we saw her...she was blushing deep red wei!!! almost purple!!! LOL!!!

like we didn't go n play ice-skating n fell dwn so many times, stupid benji n zacky wetting my HAIR!!! WITH THE DIRTY WATER!!! STUPID MONKEYS!!

like we didn't start finding 4 michelle's frend's phone...so scared that it was lost...

like we didn't sort of walk sooo slowly n took our time walking 2 the cinema when the mvie was like starting d...(we arrived in just nice xtually....:P)

like we didn't start saying byes when we need 2 go home...if Ash wasn't in my car i would xtually cried the whole way back...Thnxs Ash... i just couldn't...i just really miss u guys d....

Love u sooo much!!! i can't ever 4get u guys...dreading P.M.R. results now...thnxs 2 my dad...haiz...LOL...so random i kno...HAIZ...

KEEP IN TOUCH GUYS~!!! those going holiday, i wish y'al a safe journey going n cming home...praying 4 al of u guys....LOVE U!!!!:)

NO!!! IT'S NOT OVER!!!

2009-12-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

WAT AN IDIOT I AM!!! COURSE IT'S NOT OVER!!!

RALLY MIGHT BE OVER 4 THE O9 TEAM, but it's soooo NOT OVER 4 ME!!! the jorney just is in the beginning, we stil hav a long way 2 go!!! evry1!! MUST CME BACK1!! SPM N PMR monkeys, at least must c u guys kay!!! college aty must c ya 2 okay!!! we al must continue be in touch!!!

keep the fmily alway be a fmily wit GOD s the center n the HEAD leader in our fmily!!!

GOD SAYS....

0 wat???!!!
WE SAY....09!!!!

AMEN!!!:)

OMG!!! IT'S OVER!!!

2009-12-15T23:02:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! I mean like criously...OMG!!!

8 months...8 FREAKING MONTHS!!! N it just ended last night...closing team...i m SOOOOO PROUD of u guys...GOD realy worked in us ystday... I realy hope thAT U GUYS feel the same way with one of us when i say THAT I LOVE U VERY MUCH!!! N I realy feel that ur fmily 2 me...Though we're not as close as the opening wit al the xtra practises since we're pretty lay back... i say that we pull this together makes me do feel like we're a fmily!! i love u guys...

that doesn't NOT include the rest...THE OPENING who had 2 help us in our flow...i'm sry we gav u guys extra work...but i LOVE U GUYS as well!!! i wil list dwn evry1 i can since my head is not coorperating well...14 hours of slep haven't donce much gud...LOL!!

Aililili
Ashie pumpkin??
Bernard...BernardA, CC BOY!! LILIE BOY!!!:P
Mummy SOO!!
Daphy Duck!!!(K...K... S...EN)
Alexi
MIchy michelle...
EX...Zachary!!!
BENJI!!!
DOMI!!!
TAM TAM!!!
ANGIE....philipino sis!!!
CHANG CHANG!!!
Anni anni KOt kot!!
Johny!
Ode!!!
Mi...key!!!
Baldwin!!!
YEW!!! Ke LI!!
Dy DY!!!
Lizzie!!!
Angel GABRIEL!! CUTE!!
Graduates...
like criously...West, Alan, Laura, JOshua, Sheldon, CHRISHEN, Sammie, Michelle, Marc, Michael, GRACE!!!, Rogert, Aaron, PATRICK!!!(Drama grandpapa) DRAMA..MAMA(Evy!!) Kevin, Rachel, Brian, IVY!!! n so many mre!!! Aty Pat n uncle Richard, Jude N aty Veron...

I LOVE U GUYS!!! i sincerely do... GOD thnxs a lot 4 giving this AWESME pple into my life..n thnxs 4 being closer 2 me!!! love u evry1!!!

LOVE U!!!

0 wat??!!
09!!!! WooHooo....LOL!!! soooo CUTE!!!! ;P

Haloooooo........!!!:P

2009-12-03T01:37:00.002+08:00

sRY sRY!!! i kno long time i didn't update.... lemme update for now kay???don't get mad at me ah....:P i'l giv ya a lollipop!!:P

4 the past few days, me with the rest of the closing monkeys had been polishing our ice breakers (i still can't believe that's rally's in 1 more week!!!.....i'm fainting now...LOL!!!)

Thnxs opening for helping us out!!! u guys rox!!! awesme!!

Closing...DON'T FORGET 2 PRAY AH GUYS!!!don't worry !! be happy!!! LOL!!! LAME yeah...i mean i M LAME!!! HAHA!! LOL!!! damn hyper n nervous!!! ARGH!!! LOL!!!

n YES IVY i'l giv ur lollipop on friday!!! hehe....If not u can Shmack me!! HAHA!! NIGHT EVERY1!!! pray guys n remember we're doing this 4 HIM!!!

Sorry...truly sorry...

2009-11-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

feel so mean now...after doing that 2 her...when she supported me n help me 2 improve better...but yet...stil made her upset...i didn't mean it...we all didn't...all of us r realy sorry...

i pray that u won't b mad at us...pls 4giv us...

Hihi!! I'm back!!! :P

2009-11-24T16:25:00.002+08:00

lol!! haha...yup..i'm back!!!hehe...back fr a camp where there were ants who bite a lot n their bites were painful...back fr the camp who i shared my cutlaries evryday n took turns washing them wit CHANG CHANG!!! dang i miss her d...lol...back fr the camp where our new flow was changed again, where they took out the witchdoctor part n stomp...dang...haiz....swt....LOL!!!

Just oni woke up fr like a err i dunno how many hours of sleping...just when i arrived home, i liked went 2 tyhe toilet n start scrubing my hair 4 reason i tink i would mention 2 the world...(it's very disgusting n YUCK!!! Y m i tinking bout it...YUCK)... after washing my hair 4 like 1 hour(yes i kno i waste water thank u very much) i went into my tub n just lie back n I SLEPT IN IT!!!! LOL!!! HAHA!!! I slept like i tink 1 hour in it?? not including the washing hair part la...my maid like bang the door n sort of opened it(wit a key of course) n she saw me sleping in the tub!!! she started laughing like nuts...damn embarassing..;)

n then i dried my hair...or she did cuz i was like sitting dwn n sleping at the same time...so yeah...n then when she was done..i just fell dwn n slept...hehe...LOL LA!! SLEPING IN THE TUB!!! HAHA!!!

P.S.-Joshua's massage was realy painful but now it realy is a relieve 2 me...hehe...

I wish i NEVER knew u...

2009-11-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

U made my life misreable...it al started well...but then u destroy our frendship...it doesn't matter if u walk away fr my life, but U took away MY frends!!! i can't bliv u...n when i thought i 4get u n ur realy out of my life...u came back 2day...i suddenly rmembered the days when we were al 2gether... the hapy days...n the worse part is, i MISS those days...n i just start crying n remembring al those pain, heartaches, the anoying fellas in my closing team...i just couldn't take the pain n burden n i just cry...

2 al my team who r my very gud frends now, there r a few of u who r very anoying n i hope y'all can change...but 2 those who saw me broke dwn...lemme tell u smeting...u guys r realy lucky cuz u saw ME crying...i usually don't cry in public..i save those in my room...but now.. it was just soo embarassing...i mean i was crying like 4 the 1st time..in public...n evry1 was like looking at me... A.W. n Starfish was like talking 2 us..n they looked troubled at us n i tink specially me cuz i was crying uncontrollably...DANG!!! MY EYES LOOKS SOO SWOLLEN!!! lol... crying was weird...n specially in public...damn weird...

i hope i won't get into that situation again but i tink i will..in public so mre...haiz...being in the team is changing me so much that i tink i'm a whole new person d...swt...LOL...hehe...

DON'T BE SHY!!!

2009-11-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

U!!! U!!! U!!! DON'T SHY AWAY AND COME 4 MY CHURCH'S YOUTH RALLY CAMP!!! I'L BE WAITING 4 EVRY1!! U CAN CALL ME AND TELL ME THAT U WAN 2 CME!!! I sure wil tell u evryting!!! So wat r u waiting 4??!!! call me now or go 2 my church n fill up the form!! this year's rally is gonna b a BANG!!!

COME DON'T SHY AWAY FRENDS!!!

.....Zzzzzzz.....

2009-11-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

i'm tired n slepy.....n hungry not 2 mention aso... :P

Practise 2day...i'm sorry guys..but the boys dance is just not moving at all...thank gudnes the gurls r ok la...that's al we did...n the theme song was super-callli-fregi-listik-espideli-dociously COOL!!! the graduates were awesme!!! (i KNO awesme again..haha) i mean they did a realy fantastic job n our singing leaders gurls-(Daphy Duck, Lizzie Yong, ANNE-she's awesme way!!!-) n not 4getting the "gentlemen"-(Bernarda, exZACHARY n Benji) they were awesme 2!!! i mean evry1 is awesme la1!! haha...

Gathering was a sad-cool-great ending oni 4 this year!!! sad la...no mre gathering...haiz... the "magic show" was quite interesting...but the team are all smarty-pants pple so we sort of guess how it work n our gusses was quite logic...(DUH!!!-LOL)

V.P.S.-evry1 pls come 4 this year's YOUTH RALLY!!! U SURE DON'T WANNA MISS IT N IT'L

B AWESME GUYS!!! N gurls!!! haha!!! those who wan 2 come 4 the camp details are.....

Date -11-14 DEC

Venue-Kem Bina Semangat, K.K.B.

Fees -RM120- if u guys wan the shirt it's RM15:P

SO PLS COME N JOIN US!!!! I 100% BET THAT U GUYS GONNA HAV LOTS OF FUN N B CLOSER 2 GOD!!! EVRY1 JOIN US1!!;P

It's late n i'm stil hungry...swt...

2009-11-07T01:33:00.002+08:00

.....SWT......

I mean wat kind of person who wil wake up in the middle of night( after 1 xtually) n suddenly start hunting the fridge n snacks cupboard 4 food???!!?? i mean..wat........??? that's soo lame...my maid woke up in a fright n thought there were a bunch of rats inside the fridge n scratching the snacks cupboard but found ME wit a whole bunch of twiigies, junk foods n i dunno wat else i was holding...

anyway...i wan 2 go play games n eat my snacks n then go 2 bed...praktis 2moro 9.00 O'CLOCK in the mrning!!!! haiz.... ends at 5.30??!! but at least i'm doing smeting... rather stuck in the hse doing nth.... I wan 2 go skol but it's 100000 worse going 2 skol than just staying at home... i mean come on..who wil prefer 2 watch klasik malay mvies(i mean i've watch it many times d so i feel bored...but there r sme nice klasik mveis la...it's just bore me now) than TWILIGHT?? Or Fast n Furious?? Or i mean...there r soo many things better 2 do at home than skol...but stil it's boring...haiz...

-eating now...09team lets carry this "burden" given fr GOD n outreach 2 all n make them feel GOD's presence as the way he has touched us 2...those in the team who think that they haven't been touch yet, don't wory...HE'S up there...HE has a plan...so just sit back and wait 4 HIS touch...:P-

Tired.......zzzzzzzz

...We're all in this together...

2009-10-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

Prayer is just wat we all ned now...we all pray 4 Ke Li who just had her operation...U'l do fine Ke Li!!! u just ned 2 stop worrying n b happy...if ur sad u won't get better and ur fmily wil feel dwn 2...

Ai Li...pls...i kno ur sister is sick...even though we hav been frends just 4 a short while...i stil care 4 u guys n I KNO that Ke Li WILL get well...soo U s a sister should b happy n try 2 lighten the mood around her n in ur hse...don't add mre sadness...B the uncontrollable hyper gurl n ur sis wil get well faster 100% sure.... N pray that ur parents won't take u out... the team wil b crumpled if u guys fall out...we ned each other...

4 Alex...Pls don't stress urself n control urself...I kno it's very frustrating but things won't get done if ur stressing out n u'l just lose respect fr others...RESPECT OTHERS 1ST B4 U GAIN THEIR RESPECT...u'l make a great leader frend...just pray n pray 2 HIM n u'l fine peace...

2 Domi...if u don't relax then the felowship wil turn out a disaster...i'm crious...u just ned 2 trust GOD n pray 2 him 4 guidance that u do ur best in the fellowship...NOBODY is perfect n EVRY1 bounds 2 make mistakes...but we MUST LEARN fr the mistake 2 b a better person...U'l do fine...ur raising ur high blood pressure u kno...haha....lol...

2 al my frends out there who i didn't mention u guys...1st of all i'm very sry...i'm just 2 sleppy lor..hehe....anyways...i'm praying 4 al of u...Anne in ur exams..n others who r stil having them s well...P.M.R. students who wan their results 2 b great!!!(me 2!!!) love issues...so young n involved d...lols... I just pray n pray(diff religion aso i stil pray 4 u guys:) that evryting wil turn out great!!!

P.S.-Life is meaningless when there's no problems bcuz we wil nvr learn n stand on our own feet
2 change...So accept ur problems n overcome it...it wil make u a better n stronger person in
life...N nvr 4get GOD!!! He's the 1 who wil help n guide u when u lose the right path... n
appreciate ur frends s well!!! they smetimes can b annoying but they help when u ned ask
for help...

Well...TRUE FRENDS la...:P

HAHA!!!

2009-10-28T16:22:00.002+08:00

LOL!!!HAHA!!! criously after reading Domi's blog bout ystday drama practise i started laughing..realy laughing.... Well Benji was realy gud...i mean that's y he's called the Drama King..Sry Zacky.. both of u r equal but Benji haha!!! Domi...was Domi...no comment...haha...Those who un4tunatel were not supposed 2 cme realy regret that they didn't c Dylan laughing!!! I mean...that day was the 1st time Dylan was laughing non-stop n he was soooo HAHA!!! hahahahaha....stomach hurts....we were alll strugling sooo hard 2 control our own laughter n poor Dylan was realy struggling... HAHA!! Benji...HAHA!!! damn cute when those 2(Benji n DYdy start laughing) HAHA!!! should hav videoed it n put on FB!!! HAHA!!! I realy hope evry1 wil enjoy watching the drama...don't control urself...we all wan u 2 laugh...i hope the graduates wil laugh 2!!! HAHA!!!

oK then... MUST LAUGH AH!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!:P

B...o...r...i...n...g...

2009-10-27T11:53:00.002+08:00

zzzzzzzz

I mean criously is this how life is after P.M.R.?? i tink i rather choose P.M.R. now than err...NOW?? like it's soooo boring!!! u go 2 skol u do nth unless u hav a NEW book which u wil suddenly b soo engrossed in...The ones u had read u wil find that u can't feel it cuz the "noise pollution" around u in the hall in overwhelming...zzzzz.....

Then canot go out cuz my dad say stay at home n catch up wit wat i missed fr praktis...yeah i kno i ned 2 realy catch up but...i aso wan 2 go out...now i just go jogging outside n just do the dances we hav......haiz....my life is sooo sad...

I mean like during P.M.R. time, it IS VERY tedious studying over n over again...but at least i had smeting 2 do?? but now......i tink i watch the same C.D. hundreds of time d...yeah...that's how boring it is...Swt...

Al i can do is wait 4 27th of Nov cuz.....CHENG CHENG!!!

NEW MOON IS CMING OUT PPLE!!!! GOOO N WATCH IT N CRY WIT ME WHEN EDWARD LEAVES BELLA WIT A BROKEN HEART AND HATE JACOB BLACK WHO TRIES 2 TAKE OVER EDWARD'S PLACE IN BELLA'S HEART!!! YES LOVE EDWARD BUT HATE JACOB!!!!! AWESME!!! NEW MOON IS CMING OUT....NEW MOON IS CMING OUT....

lol...those un-twilight fans sry but criously just go n watch it 2...the twilight mvie is a very poor comparison than the book but since y'all don't read the books then i advice y'all 2 go n WATCH THE NEW MOON!!!! n aso read the book...n let us all hope that NEW MOON wil b a better representation than TWILIGHT...YAY!!!!:P

COOL!!!!

2009-10-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

criously who didn't cme 2 skol 2day realy u miss A LOT!!! i mean...the periods b4 recess was s usual the dull, boring n BORING time...
But after that.....BANG!!! i dunno if others feel the same like me...but there was this like a short "ceramah" bout being CHEF'S in HOTELS!!! i was like at 1st....Wat......??? but they let us eat this masipan-or-smeting-like-that which taste xcatly like mooncake but sweeter...n then fr that smeting-food, they made flowers,carrot basicallt deco on cakes u kno which is xtualy edible!! It was like cool cuz it started s a ball n then it turns out s a rose or carrot or many mre la!!! Sooo coooolllll!!!!
Yeah i kno it's a bit lame...but i luv cooking though i'l nvr b a chef in a hotel...haha...just telling the day in skol 2day....going oni on friday...c ya guys!!!

Why can't I enjoy my day in happiness???

2009-10-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

......

I was SOOO HAPPPYYY!!! I finally got my frend back!!! n it was sooo amazing the feeling though we cried...(she cried i just cried a bit but it was mostly tears of joy...i mean i got my frend back!!!! we're frends back!!!!!!) But IT WAS realy sad n hurting when she looks n cry...she can't control it...i realy hate it when she cry cuz i can't help her stop crying n that makes ME realy useless!!! but we're frends n i thnx GOD 4 bringing us back!!!
But then......just going home after a tiring day( i learned the whole dance steps in 2 hours!!! not 2 mention the weariness of boredom...haiz...)
my dad...he said that we're not going...AGAIN!!! I'm realy anoyed n upset that he take back on his word again...He wants me 2 complete my fr5 n then go there!!! he's been saying that since i was fr1!!! i drop the exco post i could get when i was in fr1...i start slacking on my studies when i was in fr2...(my fault xtualy but stil..) fr3...i didn't wan 2 take pmr...but wat 2 do..i don't hav the money...so i hav 2 suck it up n go 4 the exam...haiz... i don't wan 2 get a fight wit him but...i don't wan 2 wait anymre...i kno he's worried n all but...it's frustrating...
There r soo many probs here I just wan 2 move out fr here n start over anew...is it that hard?? I don't c the trouble...Wat's the prob of starting high skol again there??? Y isit better 2 stay here til fr5 n after spm go there n go 2 college??? I don't c any issue....y??? Or is there mre??? Now he gav me this "choice" 2 go there n start fr square 1 or go there n continue moving 4ward...
Wat is the prob wit square 1?? Course i don't wan 2 leave my frends here...Unlike sme frends..(i would gladly leave al those unworthy frends...wit no 2nd thought) but i would stil c them right??? it's not like i'm gonna die...i can stil chat wit them..n force them 2 go get webcam n we can c each other..... Course it'l b al very new 4 me but if u can't except changes n adapt wit it...u'l NEVER change!!! N the choice...i understand..i'm feeling scared 2...I xtualy hav 2nd doubts, but it's pointless putting it off again... in the end we're stil leaving...

I'm lost n confuse n blind...suddenly this songcame into my head(Amazing Grace came into my mind...freaky, but true...) can we alll just go now??? pls..Hei big guy up there!!! Gimme a sign!! a clue!!! Anything but smeting!!!!! pls!!!!..

Wish ur awake now...u can at least help me...haiz...

Abnormal stomach.....

2009-10-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

I can't bliv how much i ate 2day!!! like criously!!! i ate 2 n a half tosai 4 breakfast...n then kuey tiow 4 lunch... Mac D 4 tea(Michelle's dad belanja!!! soo sweet soo nice!!!;) n lasagna 4 dinner!!! N balance lasagna(which was still a lot) 4 supper!!!!(i sneak it in my room!!!;P)
I mean...I ate al of that in 1 day??!!?? i'l grow fat in 1 week!!! lol...n not 2 mention the amount of ice-cream i ate in between those meals!!! N i'm stil hungry!!! My gudness...

Is it normal??? i'm sooo not having obesity...i hope....need 2 doo mre karate training la...cut back on the unnecssary fats.... n not 2 mention the bruises i'l get....lol....:(

But til then...
ENJOY LIFE EATING ICE-CREAM!!!!!! HOORAY!!!

I'm fed up...Pls go away n stop hurting me...

2009-10-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

Really... GO AWAY!! I try 2 help u...I try 2 do my very best 2 control myself cuz ur sooo sensitive...U r just making my life sooo much mre harder!!! I'm fed up wit having frends who say they r ur frends but xtually they just wanna b frends wit u 2 get smeting n then turn their backs fr u n leave them rotting with the pain!!! PLS!!! GO AWAY!!!
U tink ur hurting right now???!!?? Pls stop pretending!!! Pls stop acting that ur my frend...U say u can't put up wit me??? well i've been putting up wit u since that Bday surprise n u who is sooo not sensitive about other pple's feeling but oni SELFISHLY tinking bout ur FREAKING FEELINGS!!! I kno who i m n i can improve like wat my TRUE FRENDS who has always been wit me no matter wat!!! in ur face!! i hav true frends n i don't ned frrends who like u say hello n talk nicely but can't take my character..well sory i can't change who i m just 4 a sensitive person like u!!! Ur making my life like hell!! don't u tink that u being sooo sensitive 2 UR FEELINGS ONI can at least be sensitive 2 OTHER PPLE'S FEELINGS???!!!??
U r not worthy 2 b my frend anymre if u can't xcept me 4 who i m!!! I can tolerate wit pple 2 a certain xtend cuz i kno many pple make mistake n we ned 2 tolerate 2 keep the peace... my dad always says that true frends wil tolerate n understand n help u improve!! not just saying "Zip it! Jeanne u just hurt my feelings" n walk away n asking me 2 hate u n 2 never forgiv u!!!u should at least say where is my faults n not just walk away n ignoring me cuz i tel u that doesn't help n wil make u lose ur frends!!! DOMINIC HAS BEEN MY FREND SINCE STD 6 N WE'RE TOLERATE 2 EACH OTHER ATTITUDE!!! He kno that i can b soo mean n yet he helped me change a little n that's what frends r 4!!! I hav feelings 2 u kno!!!

I like u n i realy wan 2 b frends wit u... i hate 2 admit it but i do realy wan 2 help u even though ur hurting me al the time... we're in the team n like fmily n i hate ignoring my fmily... but if that's what u want, then i oni can pray til u realy find peace n GOD in u...cuz criously...GOD i soooo far away fr u n HE can't reach u unless u start changing ur behaviour...

Why??

2009-10-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

..........

I don't understand...I don't get it y it ended like that...Y did it had 2 end that way?? we were al having fun n enjoying ourselves whe suddenly BAM the fight occured...Wat did i do?? i kno i don't realy take pple criously when the mood is light but y on earth must she xplode like that n ruin the night?? n ask me 2 say that I hate her and I'L never 4giv her?? what the hell is going on???

Btw...A.L.
Hate is a useless emotion for it only causes no peace and brings u away fr HIM the light
but closer 2 the darkness...n i wanna b closer 2 the light...i can't change u and ur feelings 2wards me...but i hope we'l stil b frends cuz u r my frend no matter wat...

I don't kno wat 2 do now...

Don't push gurls around easily...

2009-10-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

..............................

I was reading other pple's blog n 1 of the post realy caught my eye n i decide 2 post the similar post on my blog...sry 2 that person n those who had read it...anyway...it goes like this....

...King Arthur and the Witch...

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighbouring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So, the monarch offered him his freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer and, if after a year, he still had no answer; he would be put to death.
The question...?
WHAT DO WOMEN REALY WANT???
Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end. He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everyone: the princess, the priests, the wise men and even the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.Many people advised him to consult the old witch, for only she would have the answer. But the price would be high; as the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.
The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no choice but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he would have to agree to her price first. The old witch wanted to marry Sir Lancelot, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend!
Young Arthur was horrified. She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a repugnant creature in all his life. He refused to force his friend to marry her and endure such a terrible burden; but Lancelot, learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He said nothing was too big of a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table. Hence, a wedding was proclaimed and the witch answered Arthur's question thus:What a woman really wants, She answered....
!!!IS TO BE IN CHARGE OF HER OWN LIFE!!!
Everyone in the kingdom instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it was, the neighbouring monarch granted Arthur his freedom and Lancelot and the witch had a wonderful wedding.The honeymoon hour approached and Lancelot, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But, what a sight awaited him. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen lay before him on the bed. The astounded Lancelot asked what had happened The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she appeared as a witch, she would henceforth, be her horrible deformed self only half the time and the beautiful maiden the other half.
Which would he prefer?Beautiful during the day.... or night?Lancelot pondered the predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his castle, an old witch? Or, would he prefer having a hideous witch during the day, but by night, a beautiful woman for him to enjoy wondrous intimate moments?
What would YOU do?What Lancelot chose is below.
BUT....make YOUR choice before you scroll down below.OKAY?

Noble Lancelot said that he would allow HER to make the choice herself. Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life

Now....what is the moral to this story?Scroll down....
The moral is....
If you don't let a woman have her own way...

THINGS ARE GOING TO GET VERY UGLY.....

Don't think that u guys are better than gurls...cuz in evry men success there's always a woman involved...N in evry men downfall there's always a woman behind it...WATCH OUT GUYS!!!

NO!!!

2009-10-19T15:46:00.002+08:00

...NO!!!!!...

MY FRIDGE!!!! GOT NO MRE ICE-CREAM!!!! NO!!!! I CAN'T BLIV THIS!!! I NED ICE-CREAM!!! I was sooo desperate til i went 2 7eleven n but a whole box of ice-cream!!! that desperate i was yes i kno... haiz...lucky 7eleven a few blocks bhind my hse...

Enjoying my tiramisu ice-cream now...BB!!!

...Dead tired...

2009-10-18T19:33:00.002+08:00

zzzzzz

I can't bliv it!!! s.skol launching is over!!! like....HELLLOOOO???!!!??? i can't bliv it...it's been oni 1 week i tink since the launching 4 our youth rally in church(infront of i i dunno la mostly all the parishioners!!!!)....n now...launching in s.skol...is over 2!!! time flew very quick... i can't bliv how quick isit... isit like this when the rally is over??? when the end of closing night??? the feeling??
i think it's realy terible....but i think i feel gud 2!!! cuz our team's hardwork(along wit the polishing fr the graduates realy paid off!!!:) but now i feel empty...cuz nothing 2 do...til Aaron(Lee not West) send me n sms n giving me work...zzzzzzz...
tired...n hungry....but ned 2 go 2 divali open hse...zzzzz.......i just wanna slep...n dream bout ice-cream melting in my mouth...yummy....

gtg now...i'l c if i can go on9 n chit chat wit the team....specially u Aaron!!!>)

Will u pls....GO!!!

2009-10-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

I'm fed up of trouble!!! I'm tired of having go through problems!!! After i broke my relationship wit 1 of my best frend(she realy stab me way 2 hard n deep) It took me MONTHS 2 4get wat she've done completly...I t hurts 2 b alone!!!
But i stil have my dad n Domi(who understand me better than any1 else-sry 2 others) n MY 09team... The team who have supported me in studies...the few graduates who gave me wise advice... So i'l 4get u completly n i'l b the 1 who wil drive out the knife fr my heart who u unremorsefully stab it in me...ur HISTORY!!! N i thnx GOD 4 it!!!
Hei guys (n gurls) if u wanna go out(mainly 4 the fr3's:) pls lemme kno...i feel sooo bored at home....(not realy:) wan 2 hang out wit al of u!!! Sme1 pls arrange ah!!!hehe....
N L.H. pls stop it... I'm sry but ur making me feel sooo sick... I don't mean 2 hurt ur feelings but i'm sry we can't b frends anymre... So pls stop trying n embarassing me mre...fr ur ex frend...

Life...When wil it ever end??

WHO ARE YOU???!!??

2009-10-14T10:12:00.002+08:00

ANY1 PLS HELP ME!!! TELL ME PLS WHO IS FATTYFISH????!!!??? N ASO CATFISH??? like helloo!!!!! can u at least gimme a clue???

i kno this post was pointless but f.y.i. 4 those reading this post...PLS TELL ME WHO IS FATTYFISH N CATFISH1!!!!! I owe u.......my undying respect????

SHOW URSELF!!!!

...IT'S OVER MATES!!!...

2009-10-13T10:54:00.002+08:00

THE END!!! IT JUST ENDED LIKE THAT!!! I can't blive P.M.R. was over until my hyper frends was screaming their heads off!!!
this was our conversation after the end of our last exam(K.H.) the tcher just oni said that time's up n evry1 was like screaming!!! b4 we even hand over our paper!!!haha!!

Jeanne: i was like "y r u guys screaming 4???" like P.M.R. over d....lol...

Frends: They were like looking at me like i just said the most ridiculous sentence ever n sme even looked like they want 2 shake me til my head grasp what had just happened...
"Jeanne...i kno la u very smart 1 n luv P.M.R. but... HELOOOOO!!!???!!! P.M.R. JUST ENDED!!! WE'RE FREE!!! CAN'T U TASTE THE FREEDOM WITH UR TONGUE???!!!"

Jeanne: al i can said was "oh...lol..."

my frends realy wanted 2 kill me 4 showing no reaction at all like i didn't grasp it yet...then when i started laughing uncontrollably then they laughed with me n we screamed our hearts out!!! haha...well even though life's gonna b pretty hectic 4 us...(09 fr3's) but i wan 2 go out n spend the day wit my frends n yes Domi.... i wan 2 go out n WATCH MVIES!!! N SHOPPING!!! BUYING NEW BOOKS!!! N FORCE MY DADDY 2 GO OUT WALK HERE N THERE!!!
tinking bout it makes me realy eager...n excited!!! don't worry 4 those having their Finals...i'l stil pray 4 all of u guys n gurls..hehe...sory la...2 excited...hehe...

FREEDOM!!!

...Waiting 4 the end 2 arrive...

2009-10-12T16:21:00.002+08:00

I can't bliv my eyes!!! like hellooo??!! it's the 2nd last day 4 the anoying P.M.R.!!! haha!! criously...time flew sooo fast!!! i can't bliv it... well...as they say all good things need 2 come 2 an end...(oni thing, P.M.R. is soooo NOT a good thing...:)
2moro K.H. n then... FREEDOM!!! i mean well freedom in skol...but those fr3's need 2 take over a heavier job specially when we're all doing the gathering cuz the rest are doing their finals...well.. at least i can b out of my room doing smething i love 2 doo n b closer with myfrends again...!!! n of course start doing our icebreakers...i 4got what i'm supposed 2 do 4 the handmime d...hehe... ivy, kathleen n michelle gonna kill me if i'm the cause of the delay...don't worry team...i can catch up...:)
hungry n tired...later going 4 rosary...pray that evry1 will get a great result!! gonna eat ice-cream now!!! miss my fav food!!! all fr3's start the countdwn 2 FRRRREEEEDOMMM!!!!

xoxo....
FREEDOM!!!

Hope it'l last....:P

2009-10-09T19:23:00.003+08:00

After that disastrous BM paper1...no offence but....english, science n geo was absolutely easy!!!! i don't wanna like brag or anyting but criously it was!!! i kno sme will call me a lunatic but....nvm...
the hilarious part was mostly all what my frends n I discussed (like 10 minutes b4 we enter the examination room) ALLL came out!!!! which was sooo freaky!! but yet i'm soo glad we did...it was a relieve... evry single question we discussed came out!!! if i couldn't control myself, i would have been laughing all the time...haha....thinking bout it...haha.....
dude fr3's!!! dyo realise that P.M.R. is almost over d??!!!??? HOORAY!!! wait...time 4 celebration is not here yet....must stil study 4 sej, KH n math.....MATH!!! ergh...
anyway...those who think they didn't do really well in any of the pass exam, relax ok.. pray that the examiners will be sooo KIND n lower the marking 4 A 2 68....hehe...(specially 4 BM!!!) PRAY evrybody!!! those who r not soo goood in their sej...i'm sorryy i don't kno how 2 help u guys...just read in a quiet room n pray b4 u study that u won't fall asleep during studying sej...i kno it's imposible but with GOD by our side anything is posible!!! hehe...

xoxo...
GOOD LUCK GUYS!!!! ALL THE BEST!!!:P

Bad feeling...

2009-10-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

I kno evry1 said that P.M.R. is just a piece of cake...but i don't kno y i'm having a bad feeling bout the next exams i'm unfortunately gonna go through...
there r 2 many butterflies in my stomach...i feel like i just wanna b stuck in the toilet n remain there til that wretched P.M.R. is over...but i guess my dad wil break dwn the door b4 i could even stay 4 at least 3 hours...the longest i can take shower n stay in my bathroom is 3 hours... the hot water is just...awesme...hehe....
science n english...many said that english gonna b mre trickier than science which is sooo wrong...usually it's english which is the easy 1...anyway...they said that trials r always harder but look how evry1 suffered in paper1!!! stupid teachers who go n set sooo hadr the paper...
gosh..i ned 2 relax...it's just P.M.R....i'm making it like it's the end of the world...my tchers were right...i m freaking out myself...just don't wanna disapoint m dad...
haiz...sad case la i'm in....studying science n reading novel 2 relax my mind...thnxs evry1 who wished me gud luck n supported me...i realy ned al the luck i can get....

I tink a part of me just died d...

2009-10-07T12:34:00.002+08:00

BM WAS A DISASTER!!! OK...lemme b mre specific...PAPER1 WAS FREAKING HARD!!! paper2 was surprisingly easy....hope my marks wil b wil 4 paper 2 cuz i kno i can't put my hope on that wretched paper1...i realy feel like killing those who were responsible setting that stupid paper.....
2moro...english n science...at least i can relax a bit...but the next day....GEOGRAFI!!! i don't tink i can relax on that day...hehe...anyway...piece by piece of me is dying d...stupid paper1...i hope english won't b confusing...since english IS a confusing language...lol...pray n pray is all i got...n n xtra last minute tips...hehe...

;uck guys...

Dying...

2009-10-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

Why can't the eath below me just crack open n swallow me up?? so i no need 2 have this worry deep dwn inside my heart though how many frends hav been trying 2 chill me dwn... i can't do this pmr...i'm sooo not ready!!! i'm soo gonna fail!!! i'm soo gonna disapoint my dad!!!
i feel realy bad n upset...haven't done the test yet but i kno i hav a bad feeling bout this...2 make matter worse i'm sitting right infront of the teacher's table..so i'l always feel the constant start of the teacher...groan...
2 all my frends evrywhere...pls do 4 me something...pls bury my body in a beautiful coffin with lots of flowers which smells realy exotic!!! i wan 2 leave in peace.....i tink my funeral wil b like straight after my pmr's done

thnxs 4 ur coorperation...love u guys!!!n gud luck s pmr starts in 9 hours...haiz...i'l die soon...

Wish me luck...

2009-10-06T14:43:00.002+08:00

2moro.....n 2moro...n 2moro...till next week...P.M.R....
i don't even think i can make it out of the examination classroom alive...i don't kno how i can go in again 4 the next exam if by a miracle i can cme out fr the 1st test alive.......
i'm exagerating but i don't kno how i can survive...P.M.R......n evry1 said it's freaking easy...very funny...i'm soo LMAO!!! lol...
gud luck evrybody.....don't worry..if i don't make it alive...i'l promise i'l visit u guys frequently when y'all r slepping....hehe.....oooohhhh....

evry1...gud luck.......:P

Hungry....

2009-10-01T12:24:00.002+08:00

Skip skol 2day...wise choice...just finis study 4 the 4th time the whole chap1,2, n 3 of geo...looking at geo's pass year questions...thnxs Kelly....
Nothing 2 do...no mre ice-cream...sad...taking a break....after lunch gonna do kh revision...P.M.R. is realy a nuisance...
launching this sunday....gonna die of exhaustion when i fall on my bed...haiz.....i hope we'l all do n awesme launching!!! lol...
can't wait 2 scream on the top of lungs when P.M.R.'s over...haha....bet al the windows gonna break when my screams reach them...haha...i'm being realy stupid n silly now...nothing 2 do ma...lol...hehe...... enojy the weekend cming frends!!!

(09 team..don't 4get 2 pray hard 4 our launching so there won't b any flaws...P.M.R. students...lol...just pray 100x harder that the exam won't kill us...)

SAYONARA!!!!

The dreaded exam....

2009-09-29T18:32:00.003+08:00

SHOOT!!! It's here...the worse thing in the season... The time when i'l always start 2 panic..the only time when i'm having butterflies in my stomach...the time when i'm stuck in the house 1 month b4 it studying til i finish doing it....THE TIME 4 P.M.R.....is here!!!!
Crap!! i can't bliv time flew soooo fast!!!!!! argh!!! i'm not ready...i'm not gonna do well...i tink i'l do very badly...oh no.......i'm feeling sick now...can't take the pressure fr evrywhere!!! arghg!!!
LOL...... even though i'm not prepared i stil ned 2 take the exam... sooo i can't panic..i ned 2 control myself..i....dunno...how....2....control...the....fear....
my dad...MY DAD!!! OH NO!!! another panic...haiz...shouldn't panic...haiz...the rally...it's almost here...closing team..we ned 2 buck up.......oh no...fellowship....oh no....launching.....oh no.......
ned 2 pray harder...PRAY HARDER!!! lol.....n aso study...STUDY!!! those fr 4's gonna have their exam s well..i wish y'all the best 2!!!
n those unlucky 1's who r sitting 4 their P.M.R.(the most dreadful exam in history---4 now---:) do ur best n rmember if u don't do well...it's not the end of the world...

GUD LUCK!!!:)

PAIN...

2009-09-27T01:55:00.004+08:00

After all the pain n hardship, n left dwn, kick around by those i thought were my real true friends... i've learned that u can't trust any1 else even ur parents cept 4 GOD....... even if u tell ur mum who ur crush is or ur dad who it is...they'l go havoc n then tell evry1 in the fmily bout this guy or gurl though u beg them not 2.... parents.... they just love u...u can 4giv them...
but when ur friends since primary skol suddenly stabs u at the back, by telling al ur secrets like they're just simple n normal conversations... u feel realy hurt n let dwn... repeat n repeat u get the same stab evry part of ur body...the stab is xtremly painful... n even though u try 2 4 get it... the pain n btrayal quietly creeps in ur mind when ur aslep or daydreaming n u'l remember what they've done...n it hurts again...u try 2 giv it up 2 GOD..u try n beg him 2 take the pain away fr u but the pain always sticks in ur core...
nothing can ever destroy the pain..... even GOD had 2 b in pain al the time watching us leave in misery n greed n al the unhealthy ways we live even though he gav us his oni son 2 die 4 us.... u can let go of the pain..but sooner or later the pain wil return n hurt u a million times harder.. pain is immortal.... evry1 human or plants, or animals or nature who feels the pain by what we're doing 2 them-destructing nature by using CFC, air-con, etc...even GOD!!! feels pain......
n it hurts when u wan 2 let it go...but sme1 else wil push n add mre salt in the wound... when ur friends don't trust u.... when ur friends don't like u cuz sme1 poison thier minds cuz of jeaousy... when those u wan 2 make friends with look dwn on u cuz u don't fit in their rank... the most painful thing u'l ever feel ( cept anything 2 do bout fmily) is when ur friends left u out... when ur friends ignore u...but like Jesus...we ned 2 move on we ned 2 suffer 2 reach what we want...n the pain no matter how strong it is..... wil soon dissapear but not completly....when u hav GOD wit u....even though the pain wil stil cme we ned 2 trust HIM 4 it is oni HIM who we can trust... b careful who u place ur trust or they'l end up stabbing u not oni fr the back but even in front of u..
s 1 of my gud friend said....pray hard...n pray harder when u feel like how i felt when i was alone in the dark... prayers.....is the oni cure not time..... pray sincerely n u'l find peace.....

pain canot b vanquish completly...
but can b ignored if u have faith...
without faith u can't move on closer 2 HIM...
believe in urself n ttrust HIM...
draw others 2 him but b careful who u put ur trust...
or u'l end up hurt...
and u'l chase away HIM...
and the madness of life shal consume u...
until there's no 1 else 4 u...
nothing left 4 u...
oni death...
and that death which creeps 2wards u...
is not even peaceful...
just cuz u fall in the madness of the pain u suffer...
u'l leave the world also in pain n not peace...
beware...
pple say don't mess with fire...
but i say don't mess with ur faith...
cuz if u slack a little...
evryting wil b lost...
the candle 2 light wil b bown out...
n a painful death awaits...

What will i ever do without them???

2009-09-26T15:26:00.002+08:00

Though i just oni know him ike 4 a couple of months(n often infuriate him at times..hehe..)lol... he's always there helping me out n teaching us n guiding us 2wards the right way...many of u won't kno this if u guys r not tin the team..but he's the team oldest n the masters of the masters in our logistics..we al call him our GRANDFATHER!!! He's 1 of the awesmeness(i don't know if there's such word which definitly not...hehe..) graduate but i hav 2 say...ALL OUR GRADUATES R SUPER DUPER AWESME!!!!

IVY(she really help me a lot...), MICHELLE, MARC(must b EVry careful wit him cuz he can blow up any minute...watch out!!!:) STEP, KATH, AARON( man he's realy cool when he's DRUMMING!!! KEVIN!!! he know's evryting boutt music..he can play evryting!!! technically evryting like-keyboard, guitar, drum, n wat eElse aso la i tak tau...:) JOSHUA, AARON( he can't b separate fr the projector...haha..:), GRACE( I never see her angry...she's always smiling...so sweet...) JO-ANN(she's amazing!!!) SHELDON!!!!(HE'S REALLY CUTE!!! n smetimes very anoying....hehe...) IAN KAM!!!( WE AL STIL MISS YA!!!) N SO MANY OTHER MRE!!! our graduates spend their time "handling" us( i kno we're very mafan...sooryyy lor...:)

i don't kno what we're gonna do witout them.. they're like angels fr heaven cme dwn 2 help us go closer 2 GOD!!! i'm realy sory if i did smething bad or bhave improper... but Starfish... thnxs 4 trying 2 cheer me up... sorry if i realy get on ur nerves..hehe...i'l try...
n aso... not 2 4getting my awesme team members!!! the gurls who did n awesme job on the banner!!! the boys who their launching dance is really pumping n hot!!! n aty Pat n uncle Richard who've done so many things 4 us...(n aso Beatrice...hehe:)
i don't kno why i did this post... mayb cuz of Starfish wit his message.. i don't kno.. n i don't tink i'l ever wil kno...hehe.... thnxs Starfish...Thnxs 09team...Thnxs Graduates...Thnxs Aty Pat, Uncle Richard n Beatrice...
xoxo
THNXS EVRY1!!!!

I AM SOOO SORRY!!!!:(

2009-09-25T11:22:00.002+08:00

I M SOO SORRY 2 AL THE GURLS WHO I HAV DISAPOINTED LAST WEDNESDAY N THURSDAY!!! N 2 make things worse i don't kno how 2 make up 2 them..i kno 4 sme sorry is not enough...but i don't kno wat else 2 do..n i can't go 4 practise this friday n propably this sunday 2.. i feel realy sad n angry at myself 4 disapointing al of u..
2 Daph i don't tink i can 4giv myself n i can't 4get this incident.....cuz this is like the 1st time i realy do kno that i disapointed so many of my frends just cuz i didin't put enough n mre effort 2 help y'all...
VERY SORRY...

THNXS DOMI!!!

2009-09-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

If any of the 09 team is reading this...1st and foremost..i wanna say that this domi is none other than DOMINIC GAN!!!
the whole day i was in bad mood...cuz if i didn't do well in my P.M.R.(wat a burden) my dad says tat he'l drop me out of the team... n i was realy upset cuz i realy wanna b in the team n carry out what i started... but my dad gave me this xtra burden n i feel like i'm gonna drop dead after carrying so many burden on my shoulder...
so the whole day i was like trap in my room reading geo (like mad mind u) n i was like very scared my result wil drop... i just don't wanna drop out of the team... but then dominic.. DOMINIC!!! was just the peson 2 cheer me up!!! 2 bad i don't hav ice cream wit me now... haiz...lol...
ANYWAYS..... i just really wanna thnx my domi 4 being there al the time wen i was n now dwn al the time... ur a great frend 2 hav... i tink i'l b always a moody total gloomy gurl if there wasn't u 2 cheer me up!!! sorry if i lose my head on u sme times...hehe...2 those other frends aso i love y'all even ai li, daphney, dim sum and many mre!!! i'm realy blessed of having many frends who r aso true 2 me...
xoxo
love u guys!!!(thnxs domi!!!)

4........

2009-09-07T22:01:00.002+08:00

4 things i'l love to do....

-shopping the whole day around the world!!!

-jungle tracking n exploring nature(caves, volcanoes, hot springs, etc....)

-become a succesful international actress!!!

-EATING ICE-CREAM ALL THE TIME!!!(without putting on xtra weight!!!)

4 things i'l love to have...

-having my own dream home with a enormous swimming pool, a huge garden, and lots

of fountains in it!!!

-having my own freaking fast sport cars!!!

-3 handsome sons

-my hubby to have the characters of EDWARD CULLEN!!!

4 countries i'l love to go...

-New Zealand!!!

-Russia!!!

-Rome!!!

-France!!!

4 places i'l love to hang out...

-Shopping complex!!!

-Beach!!!

-Home!!!

-Anywhere where my frends hang out!!!

4 drinks i never stop drinking...

-Lime juice!!!

-Lemonade!!!

-Milk!!!

-Sprite!!!

4 flavours of ice-cream i love...

-Vanilla with oreo!!!

-Yam!!!

-Ice potong!!!

-Rocky road(f.y.i.-it's chocolate with marshmallow n choky chips in it)!!!

4 of my favourite hobbies...

-Reading!!!

-Imagining(daydreaming)!!!

-Watching movies!!!

-Shopping!!!

4 ways for to stay happy...

-Start a random laugh!!!

-Start dancing!!!

-Think of Edward Cullen!!!

-Eat ice-cream!!!

The vampire who's sooo HOT!!!

2009-09-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

ISN'T EDWARD CULLEN HOT!!!! SO IN LUV WIT HIM!!!!

Such a weirdo...

2009-09-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

I'M such a weirdo....as far as i hate 2 admit myself...i dunno y.....but i really thought that blogging was a waste of time...but now.... BLOGGING IS REALY COOL!!! welll....wat dyo xpect fr a gurl who luves shopping, reading books(not school books mind u), n watching mvies all the time!!! it's quite a big shock in my life xtually.......
thnxs Josh!!! luv u 4 giving me tat dare!!

xoxoxo....
loving blogging....

Body aches terribly...

2009-09-06T19:52:00.002+08:00

Practise on friday was really hectic...(not to mention awfully painful...)...my body stil aches til now...and my head's burning!!! So more need to study sejarah n K.H.!!! sejarah ok la...but K.H.!!! can't even remember anyting...haiz....
4 those unlucky ones who are sitting 4 their trials n soon the unescapable P.M.R...... i wish y'all the best!!! y'all sure wil get all A's la... i'm the oni 1 who wil b left bhind....zzzzz....
n i wan wish gud luck 2 my sis Joanne...4 her U.P.S.R. is this week....lol...u sure can pass 1.... U.P.S.R. is nothing compare 2 P.M.R.....zzzzz.....

P.S.- GUD LUCK EVERY1!!!!
xoxoxo.....:P

It may be little, but it is important

2009-09-05T16:02:00.004+08:00

Okay a few reminders to all readers: =)

1. This blog was created to serve the purpose of gathering 50 readers! So on the right hand side of the blog, i hope you probably notice something with a button FOLLOW. Click on it. Okay?

2. The ghosts who actually enter this blog, please leave a comment la. At least say a hi. Thanks.

AI LI!!! UR 1 OF A KIND!!!

2009-09-05T14:22:00.002+08:00

My blog was like sooo dead b4 this.....zzzzzz..... but now u made it imposibly fantastic!!! i dunno how can i repay u!!! anyting u wan u can count on me gurl!!!!

LUV YA FREND!!!MUAX!!!
xoxoxo.....ur my angel on earth!!!....

I love chocolates;

2009-09-05T00:54:00.004+08:00

Yeah the blog banner is not very nice... Sorry arh!

Will make a few better ones for you to choose when im actually free...

hehe. So in the mean time, be vain.

ADVERTISTMENT #1.

Introducing Roll-away cream.

I mean honestly la, its practically buh bye eye bags.

You will know its working when your eye bags stink from the faeces.

Well, er.... We are using sistem barter and exchanging this amazing product for a box of ferrero rochers. Thanks.

Guide

2009-09-05T00:31:00.003+08:00

Okay, Im pimping Jeanne's New Awesome Blog!!!! Whoppeedoo.

yes, this is an alien that attacked her territory.

Yeah, anyways, this is a guide on how to post okay? Well, mostly for Jeanne la.

So the first step is your thoughts or whatever lame nonsense that comes to your mind.

#2.

Play With Colours.

What a awesome day today was..(ultraboring)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaWWWWWWWWWwwwwEeeeeeeeeessssSSSSooOOOommme

Third.

Blog is Expressing Yourself.

Your life, Your thought, on a blog.

Think Big, Think Nice, Think Creative (even if you cant)

4thly,
Use Pictures. LOTS and LOTS of pictures brighten up a dull blog.

Pictures paint a thousand words.

You can generally make them using programs or theres this site*click where you can make it online. Or you can get nice ones from here*click and here *click

Or pictures on your own life. Better then most of the pictures. Cause when people come to your blog. They want to know how you are actually like. So they will be wanting to see pictures!!!!!

Lol.

5th
~~Jokes, Quotes ETC ETC. Okay i always ignore this cause lazy find la.~~

Videos are welcome too though.

FREAKING OUT!!!

2009-09-04T19:15:00.002+08:00

I DID VERY BADLY IN MY MATH'S TRIALS!!! ARGH!!! crap....ergh.... PMR IS JUST LESS THAN A MONTH AWAY!!! I'M SO SCREWED!!! ARGH!!! Wat do i do wen i'm freaking out??? hmm.... LOL!!!ICE-CREAM!!! Ice-cream is the best medicine 4 anyting... hav any probs?? EAT ICE-CREAM!!!

P.S.-if ur scared 2 bcome fat...just drag ur leg n do sme exercise n then go on eating ICE-CREAM again!!!! L.O.L.!!!:P

2009-09-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

L.O.L.!!! I had a blog but this is the very 1st time i open it and start doing a post!!! haha... well... for those who do not kno me tat well... u stil don't get to kno me better cuz i reveal my true self oni to those friends who have proven themselves worthy to me....sorry....hehe... i'm not realy sure if i'l enjoy blogging....?? but i'l try 2 fill up my blog wit at least a few crap...hehe...
B.T.W....
HAPPY BDAY EDWARD AND EDMUND!!! I MISS U GUYS!!! LUV YA!!!